I want susi on top of a burger scattered with popcorn and cheeeeeese

I've finally admitted to myself that the mantra I think I live by, "FOOD IS FUEL," is irrelevant to my current patterns of food consumption. If my mantra was realistic it would say,"CHOLESTEROL IS MY EMOTIONAL TRANQUILIZER." It's true, - I eat unhealthiest when I'm overwhelmed by strong emotions, like missing the b.f. or family theatrics. I know this isn't a novel concept, but food induging is a bit like AA - the first step is admitting you have an issue.

I arrived about my conclusion about my food consumption having a direct link with emotion when, over the past week, I felt so ravaged by the events of my life I purposely shut off my two biggest emotional weights - compassion and objective thinking - on order to shut off feeling completely and just get through the week. The result? I wasn't hungry, and lost two pounds. Now that I'm admitting this to myself as I'm typing the sentence, my kitchen timer (which is in the shape of a sushi) is making me drool uncontrollably. Here is an example of the unhealthy 'fasting' I've been doing for the past week, demonstrated by today's menu:

Breakfast:
1 Banana - 120 cal
Lunch
Chicken BBQ pizza slice - 500 cals
Coffee w cream, brown sugar - 120 cals
Dinner
1/2 a compost muffin - 250 cals
1 strawberry-apple smoothie - 300 cals
1 coffee black - 2 cals
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1292 CALORIES
= lacking nutrients for brain and organ function
= lacking energy for information absorbition
= lacking patience for proper human communication

Lastly, more and more I have been thinking - why is it I eat a little bit for breakfast, aim for a light lunch, then a snack, and a big dinner with the family? That is certainly not the optimal way for energy utilization. I'm going to try re-organizing it so that it's a smallish breakfast, medium lunch, small dinner and lots of fruits inbetween as snacks.

My new self-improvement rule: snacking is unlimited in quantity, but is limited to fruit and veggie-based foods, fresh only (caesar salad included).

Sorry this is so text-heavy this time around; to make things better, a good note to end things on, and a summary of how I feel about now: